Timing

I have had a millionish blog posts composed in my head for the past 6 months or so but as you can see I never did them. I'm having a hard time right now with the stagnant nature I feel our (mostly my) life is. There are so many things that I want to happen right now and yet they're not. I'm ready to move on but we're still stuck in this chapter. But then again there are times where I think to myself "Why can't I still be a Toys'R Us kid? Why do I need to worry about all this grown up stuff? I'm not old enough for this..." Cooper is going to be 2 in a couple of weeks and one of my biggest plans was to have my kids spaced 2ish years apart. Well that's not going to happen. I have had three, yes three, miscarriages in the past 6 months. Ugh! The Dr.s assure me there is nothing wrong with me (are we looking at the same chart?) so I guess it just isn't the right time. I don't really like sympathy so we have kept this fact to ourselves but I find myself shutting the world and everyone in it out. One of my New Year's resolutions is to be better at letting my friends in so I don't wake up one day friendless... so letting you in I am :). We're still waiting to hear back from all the law schools Jeff applied to so we can decide where we're going to spend the next 3 years of our life. I guess it is all about the right timing.

here's a picture to reward you for reading my rants :)